| Ah, my first ever Xanga site. I have just accomplished a feat that even 3rd graders are capable of, and dam it feels good. I better put a disclaimer somewhere. Disclaimer: Me > you, so don't feel bad. Okay, that's better. Now onto my first post ^__^
So today was/is Sunday, the day I hate the most out of the week for numerous reasons. I'm not going to go into them, but I'm sure you can guess a few. Anyways, just like the other Sunday's I have had before in my life, this one sucked. Let's recall what I did: I got up, typed up part of my paper, stared into space for a good while, took some books back to the library, got my ass kicked in Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes (I had no clue you could kill people!), tried to work on my paper again (I failed), played some Max Payne 2 and threw up 'cause I got so damn dizzy (good game, though), went running, worked on my paper a little bit more and now I'm here, talking to you. In all, it was quite a boring-ass day. But it's okay; it had an excuse. Today was Sunday, afterall.
Even though it wan't really productive nor fun, the day was emotional. I don't know what gets into me, this depression. It's like I'm getting it more and more now. The source: women. I can't concentrate. I just keep thinking, keep over-analyzing relationships that I have with girls around me, trying to see if there's anything anywhere. Nope. Looks like another night not going out to eat with someone or watching a movie with someone or just f***ing talking to someone. I really don't know what to do. I try and I try but I think I come off as too "buddy buddy"- I am the friend. I'm not complaining; being a friend is cool. But I guess I'm just searching for a friend on another level, someone I can share experiences with; someone to really look forward to just hanging out with and talking to (the whole "getting to know you" thing). Girls, don't make this harder than it is. Hold me :'(
Why the hell am I telling you this? BECAUSE THIS IS MY F***ING XANGA SITE, THAT'S WHY!
Peace, and I'll catch you all later. |
